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Caught the #bouquet at my brother’s #wedding! Congrats to...

Sun, 28 Apr 2013 04:40:29 -0400

Caught the #bouquet at my brother’s #wedding! Congrats to Ken and Treny on getting married ♥

Merry Christmas

Tue, 25 Dec 2012 16:10:00 -0500

Merry Christmas, tumblr!

I haven’t been here in a while. I’ve been thinking of making a professional blog where I can express my struggles, lessons learned and achievements. However it makes me apprehensive whenever I want to write on this type of blog. I would always feel the need to censor it and think a lot about the implications of what I write about. Sometimes honesty has its repercussions I guess… sometimes I have a lot of anger…. so maybe I’ll just stick around tumblr? What do you guys think?

On another note, scroll below and take a look at my favourite Christmas gift (from le bf)!!! I really want to wear it, but I’ve been so scrub. I’ll have to wait for the days that I go out and New Years eve!

Hmm I should probably get started on that New Year Resolution list…

Tiffany&co for #Christmas ♥ #happygf #jewelry #shiny #bows

Tue, 25 Dec 2012 15:47:19 -0500

Tiffany&co for #Christmas ♥ #happygf #jewelry #shiny #bows

Academic Depression

Mon, 10 Dec 2012 01:12:03 -0500

The worst academic semester yet…

What the bf prepared for me before we went to see Cirque du...

Sun, 02 Dec 2012 03:57:37 -0500

What the bf prepared for me before we went to see Cirque du Soleil ♥ Happy 25 months!

Hmm

Sat, 01 Dec 2012 00:14:00 -0500

I feel like I just got slapped in the face…

FAaacKKkk....

Wed, 28 Nov 2012 12:06:16 -0500

UGH!!!!!!

Why do I second guess myself….

Why don’t I prepare for my biggest highlights!!?!?!

At least I know what to do for next time now…

Photo

Thu, 22 Nov 2012 02:41:01 -0500

overwhelmingly familiar

Thu, 22 Nov 2012 02:04:00 -0500

Today was the big day! After months of hardwork, my Bus 361 group and I visited Admiral Seymour Elementary School to deliver school supplies and run an art activity. We’ve fundraised over $1500—and possibly even up to $2000 after matching from the Vancouver Sun’s Children’s Fund!

The first thing I thought of when I stepped inside the school was that it smelt like food (someone just had lunch?)—yet in a homely way rather than an odourous way. Every corner where I looked were colourful drawings from children. Everyone was so warm and welcoming that I felt a little silly having been nervous talking to the children and teachers.

I loved at how every student’s work are hung up on the walls to be displayed—despite how realistic or crazy it looked. It was amusing how Ms. Gelson’s three walls were covered with different kinds of owl art work. My whole experience visiting the school reminded me of a time where judgement was replaced with encouragement to learn and to embrace our peers.

This was very familiar, and yet quite a bit of a contrast to the environment that I face today. I realize that as we grow older, society (and especially the business world) wires us to become very competitive. Whether that’s more of a positive or negative thing, I’m not too sure.

finding motivation

Sun, 18 Nov 2012 22:44:00 -0500

I’ve been having trouble finding motivation for quite a while now. Talking to people helps me—but most of the time only temporarily. I find myself feeling down after a few days. Lately, one thing that weighs me down most is the thought of how others do not perceive me as capable.

And so I thought about finding something that will calm me down and keep me from worrying—late at night, while travelling from point A to B on transit, while staring aimlessly at people passing by my workplace… I forgot where I thought of the idea, but I remember that I felt like a champion when I did.

What keeps me feeling optimistic? The vision of myself succeeding in the future, and then being able to display my middle-finger to all the people who’ve set me back and didn’t believe that I could be more.

I may not literally do that in the future. But damn it, it would be exhilarating.

Team XL! Love you guys :)

Mon, 12 Nov 2012 01:29:49 -0500

Team XL! Love you guys :)

Just laying in bed

Thu, 08 Nov 2012 02:27:45 -0500

Wondering what I should do.

Sometimes I consider not going away anymore, because I’m...

Sun, 04 Nov 2012 03:01:46 -0500

Sometimes I consider not going away anymore, because I’m scared of us drifting away or that I’ll lose you.

Full circle

Fri, 02 Nov 2012 15:17:05 -0400

Tough semester this year.

I had a few bad incidences happen to me this fall, but after much reflection, I realize that I’m a very lucky person. It’s amazing to see how you make a friend way back in the past, and one day they come around to help you in a way many others can’t. I feel like I’ve met quite a few of these people, and I feel so fortunate. I hope that I do (or will) play this role in other peoples’ lives.

Happy 2 years!! ♡ ♥

Fri, 02 Nov 2012 15:02:45 -0400

Happy 2 years!! ♡ ♥

The most upsetting and troubling thing is facing injustice, but having little to no power to set things right.

Sat, 27 Oct 2012 23:12:00 -0400

I have never been so humiliated. If my life had a select few events where I experience unfairness (to the degree that it blows my mind), this would probably be one.

I was angry for a short while, now I’m much more hurt than anything else. At times it feel as though my confidence and self-worth as been demolished. I try to look on the bright side, but underneath I still carry the feeling of someone soiling on my credibility.

Can’t wait until Halloween to be reunited with F1 !...

Tue, 16 Oct 2012 21:18:28 -0400

Can’t wait until Halloween to be reunited with F1 ! (Taken with Instagram)

Feeling like a boss today

Fri, 05 Oct 2012 02:09:09 -0400

The title of my blog post says it all.

On another note, it’s nice having someone who will always be here to reaffirm my bitchy side. Now that my mind is less cloudy, I just need to do what I need to do and carry on.

Not really liking this...

Tue, 02 Oct 2012 00:16:00 -0400

Hmm, I don’t really know what to do—well, actually no. I do know what to do, and I’m doing it. Usually you feel pretty good doing “the right thing,” but more and more I find myself feeling terrible. I’m not sure how I should categorize my feelings.

To me, the right thing is making decisions that are for the best interests of the group and our overall mission. It’s my sole purpose of why I am here in these shoes. And of course, I should try to take care of my people. However, when dealing with so many stakeholders, I’m managing very many different and sometimes conflicting interests. I cannot accommodate certain expectations without a few people thinking that I’m being an ass, I’m not doing enough, or whatever else. There are times when I feel like I’m unwanted or I’m being an intruder. However, if I step back and away, I carry the liabilities when things go wrong.

I know I just gotta tough it out.

In the interim, I can’t wait to shop in Portland this long-weekend!

The beauty of a woman

Sun, 30 Sep 2012 21:25:18 -0400

lilitmac:

Is not in the clothes she wears,
The figure that she carries,
Or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen from in her eyes,
Because that is the doorway to her heart,
The place where love resides.
The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole
But true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul.

It is the caring that she lovingly gives,
The passion that she shows,
And the beauty of a woman
With passing years only grows

- Teresa Mahieu